At church today the sermon had a lot of discussion about the Nativity.  The real Nativity.  The chaotic world that was the reality for the virgin Mary who traveled more or less 100 miles, to birth the King of Kings in a cave.  Wow!  What unreasonable circumstances for a child to be born.  What a gift to the world.
I would have loved to be a fly on the wall of that cave.  I wonder if within the walls if the perfect peace of Christ was felt, or was just complete joy and adoration was the only emotions at that time.  How amazing!

Thanksgiving

I love this prayer, I try to start all prayers this way.  I am very thankful for so much..
My God.

My crazy family.

My job.

My church.

My friends.

And all things that I have been given.

Proud

I am proud to live in a progressive country, where we have a non white president.  Lots of women in the Senate.  And well just diversity.  It makes me proud, I think MLK would be proud.

I am not proud of the extremist in this country, and Kentucky has a lot of them.  Can't we grow as humans?  That s the only way to make positive change in this world.

Job Transfer

I have decided to transfer from the clinic that I am currently at, to one that is closer to home.  The clinic that I am at has been a great place to work for the last 5 years.  I don't know why I really felt that I needed to leave till today.  I need to be challenged, I have been too comfortable in my job.

So I am giving up my comfortable chair and moving on, it has served me well all of these years, I hope that I have done the same for it as well.  I hope the next person is up for the adventure.

I have been asked if I am crazy for leaving such a great clinic to go to one that needs some help.  I did not know what to tell people who asked.  Earlier this week I was getting cold feet about it, but today at church my pastor talked about getting out of you comfort zone, ie the comfortable chair, to unlock your greatness, to be what God has made you to be.  This is just what I need to hear to know that I am doing the right thing by leaving my current job and moving on.  I now am excited about it, and I am ready.  Please someone take my comfortable chair!

Thank you God for all of your blessings!

Rainy Saturday..

It is feeling a lot like winter.  I did not get to feel much of a winter this year, but I think that this winter is going to make up for it!  It is getting so cold already; the only thing that makes this OK is basketball season is starting.

I did take an Alaskan cruise this summer.  So I did see a lot of snow, just not at an appropriate time.

This is the Mendenhall  Glacier.  It is very breath taking to see in person.  Alaska is just amazing to see, so much untouched land, everything seems to be magical.  

This was taken at the Icy Strait, it is a little fishing town.  So nice, and so unpopulated.  The chowder was awesome.

This is some of the nurses who I worked with on the cruise we provided care to 12 dialysis patients.  I got a free cruise for my labor.  It was a pretty unforgettable time, it is nice to know that there are some perks to being a dialysis nurse.

This was taken at the Mendenhall Glacier National Park.  It really was just beautiful there.  It is near Juno, and Juno was just as magical as well.

The most amazing thing happened today..

I have been wrestling with the fact that I have Lupus...
Let me give the back story...I have felt not right for about 5 years, something that I could never put my finger on, but I knew that I was not well.  After going to the doctor frequently during this time for various things-tachycardia, fatigue, just generally not feeling well, in December 2011 I developed fevers for a month, I was at the doctor weekly, I was weak and could not eat, I felt like death-and my Doctor could not figure it out.

On December 25 2011 I was in the bathtub praying to God to just let me make it through the day.  I heard a voice say that it was going to be ok.  Not my voice, only I heard it, it gave me peace.  I made so many promises-to be a better Christian, Mother, Person.  I started trying to live better, to get my thoughts right, and to be that person.  Then in January, I did feel better, but my right foot went numb and I was still having fevers.  I thought I had a clot in my foot so I went to the Emergency Room, there I had labs drawn and was told to go to my family doctor the next day.  So I went to the Doctor and ended up admitted to the hospital, and there was still no answers, no relief in symptoms, but I felt ok, but looked like death on all of the paperwork.  Finally the testing was done for an autoimmune disorder, which had been done in the past, finally I had an answer.  Lupus.  I was so upset to have a chronic illness, one that could effect me the rest of my life.

I accepted the fact that I had Lupus.  I felt that I got the disease because I need to slow down, I was so selfish-not being with my family and working too much.  I did not give enough and I did not know God.  I thought very poorly of myself.
I am a fixer.  So I joined a wonderful Church, went every Sunday, became a giver, quit working all over the country and started saying no-when asked to do things that I could never do, volunteered more with my daughter's school, with Church.  Now I help with elementary Sunday school.  I don't do kids, but I am doing this and I love it.  I am a Jesus Freak-I never thought I would say that. But I am.  So I have been fighting in my mind-why do I have Lupus...I never thought God gave me the disease, I just thought that I was being tested on how I was handling the disease and how I was going forward.

Today I went to Church for a small group meeting, totally should not have been there the leader is in New Orleans on vacation.  So mistakenly the other Lady in the group and I met up.  I really gave her my testimony.  She asked me as others have, do I think that God gave me the illness and I said no...I think I have been having this for awhile now, and it just came to a head.  Then we went on and had a lovely meeting.

Little did I know that this would be a mind altering day.  As I was driving to work in my car suddenly I knew, that God was listening to my prayers, and his promises were true.  I realized that I had been sick for years with an unknown illness, and now I have answer to why I did not feel good.  I knew that if my foot would has not gone numb I would have not gotten diagnosed with Lupus, I would have gone on feeling badly.  Now, due to God's goodness and perfect promises, I am getting treatment and I feel normal.

God gave me more than I ever asked for that day.  I now feel healthier, more loving, more loved, more spiritually sound, I just have so much more. Thank you Lord for all of my blessings!!! I hope that I prove worthy of them all.

The Start

Hi! I'm Sonia from Lexington, Kentucky...Home of the Wildcats??? Not much to say about Lexington, it is a college town in Kentucky.

I am married , I have two daughters, one is eighteen and the other is 7, they have my heart.  I am follower of Christ. I have become very involved in church in the last year.  I'm also a Dialysis Nurse.  I run a clinic in Georgetown Kentucky just outside of Lexington.  I am doing some transition right now to move to a larger clinic.

I hope that this blog is interesting to someone out there.  That is all that I got for now.